If I had a penny for the amount of times I texted a friend before the first day of a new class and said “I’m so nervous, I don’t know anyone and I’m shy”, I’d be rich. I ALWAYS use shy as an excuse. Why don’t you call and order your own food? I’m shy. Why don’t you ask for help? I’m shy. You knew them and you didn’t say anything? Why? I’m shy. The list goes on. And the response is always the same. Oh, it’s okay to be shy. And because of this response I’ve always felt okay to say that I’m shy and it’s become my go-to excuse for any lack of confidence–
Until today. Today was the first day of my Acting I class and I was so nervous. Why? Because I’m shy. Well, my professor instantly wiped that thought from my mind. Upon asking the class if they were nervous at all, she said Don’t say you are shy because shy doesn’t exist. She went on to explain that shyness happened when we were in elementary school and someone a little louder, or a little taller, or a little thinner, etc sat in front of us in class and spoke up and made us shrink back a little. Year by year, we got quieter and quieter and someone said “you’re just shy.” Then we felt better because we had a word for what we were feeling that later developed into our favorite excuse. But the truth is, we never were shy at all. We just thought we were.
So I left the class feeling a little un-shy, to say the least. I think I’m going to make it a goal to outgrow this excuse. Who’s with me?
Have the best week!